Today, I've taken the day off and I am heading to Canmore to attend the "Sacred Feminine Workshop" with Alana Fairchild. My friend, Sean Liv, recommended I start following her meditations to help me work through some of things. When I saw she was coming to Canmore, I jumped at the chance to sign up and attend. This was totally out of my comfort zone. I bought a single ticket and decided to have an open mind.
The drive was beautiful to the mountains. It was a perfect day, in a perfect setting. The workshop was held in the Canmore Opera House (who knew?) which is the cutest building and the energy was tranquil and peaceful. Excellent choice! I haven't been to Canmore since the last time I ran The Cause event about five years ago. Canmore is growing! I arrived early, not knowing if I would know anyone. I also wanted to be a part of the sound bath with the singing Tibetan Bowls. I love them! As I walked in, I was elated to see a friend, Nola Peacock and her daughter were there as well. Yay! I couldn't have asked for a more perfect person to sit beside while doing something that was totally out of my comfort zone. I looked around the room, at the 100+ women, and not knowing a single one. I was a little surprised, and then I saw the beautiful woman with such a presence, walk to the back of the room. Yay, another beautiful person I know, Lois Unger. Big hugs were had by all before the event started.
By the way, a big shout out to Adele Gendron who organized the event. A beautiful and elegant way to celebrate women! Thank you Adele!
When Alana Fairchild walked into the hall, her presence was electrifying! I have seen her photos and videos online and have listened to her singing and meditations. Her voice always sounded like an angel and yet part of me thought most of the sound was modified for release online. As she entered the room, the energy....and then her voice. Her voice was indeed one of an angel. She is from Australia and her accent is beautiful. Her hair was wild and fun! Her clothing bright and vibrant. Her bracelets and shoes jingled as she walked and moved throughout the room. She physically looked like an angel too.
As the morning started, she explained each of the feminine energies that we were going to be doing a detailed meditation with. It was interesting as I was unfamiliar with the why and their names. Being an analyst by nature, this information was what I needed to hear. We initially started by going around the room and saying our name and one word that lived in our heart. My word was going to be acceptance or something like that and when I opened my mouth, LOVE came out. Weird. But oh well. LOVE it is! I did feel LOVE for some reason. For the next couple of hours, I suddenly felt as though my eyes were so heavy that I could not hold them open. The last time I had felt this was when my mother passed away. There was mental and physical exhaustion that I could not explain. Instead of fighting it, I put my head back against one of the logs on the wall and closed my eyes. I could fully hear her and understand what she was saying. Interesting. I just didn't fight it.
After the explanation, we went into a Moving Mantra Meditation. Very interesting. I was out of my comfort zone and yet I was willing to try. Basically, it was music and you allowed your body to move the way it wanted to as you meditated. She did a guided meditation to walk through the journey. I must say, I was as stiff as a board as I moved. By the end, after one hour, I felt as though I had let go and started to move my body and arms. I enjoyed it but yet why was I so fearful of doing it. Doing something knew.....your brain doesn't know what to think or how to react. Now that I have done it once, I am confident the second time I do it, it would become easier.
For me, the best part of this meditation was being beside my friend Nola who is currently fighting a strong battle with breast cancer. The host, Adele, did some healing on Nola and I aided by providing and giving as much love as I could to help Nola through the next stage of her battle. I suddenly felt as though my purpose of being there was totally for Nola. Not me, but rather Nola. I was supposed to be there to give my sincere love to her as this is what she needed. Peace fell over my body and suddenly, I felt energized, alert and fulfilled.
As we broke for lunch, I purchased a beautiful blue feather for Nola. We both were admiring the colors of it from afar as the sun sparkled in the blue. It was as though the feather was speaking to both of us. As soon as I saw it, it reminded me of Nola. The ladies wrapped the feather and we all said a blessing for the feather as I told them I was leaving it on the chair for Nola as I had felt my work and time there was complete. Four blessings were put upon the feathers for her so she will be able to fly through her next journey.
On my drive home, I could not get the radio to work so I did not have anything playing in the car for the one hour drive home. It was me and my thoughts. I didn't let my thoughts stay in my head. I felt my way through my thoughts and let them slip into my heart. Sound weird. As I thought, I would ask myself how that thought felt. If there was a feeling attached to that thought, I knew I was acting from my power place and my true self. It was an interesting awareness. I need a lot more practice with this as I all too often stay up in my head and never let my heart in. This is where things like judgment, doubt, negativity, pitty, anger, and other yucky things live and they are based on the past or future. If you allow yourself to feel, it felt peaceful, calm, joy, love and gratitude, those were in the present and now. I tried to stay in the now.
My day was successful, even though I did not stay for the full day of the workshop. I learned! I loved! I experienced! I lived in the moment! I trusted! I grew!
As I lay my head on my pillow, I thank the Universe for everything in it and how it has filled my heart to the brim with hope and love!
Until day #10
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